Wow, it’s been way too long since I’ve posted on here, and I apologize for that. Life has been extremely busy, and I’ve been reevaluating some things. 2018 was wonderful, and I know 2019 will be even better. I’m turning 30 this year, and I’m very excited to see what my 30s will have in store. At the same time, I feel like I’m not as accomplished as I would like to be, which I know is just insecurity rearing its ugly head.
Instead of feeling like a failure in some aspects of my life, I’m looking on the brighter side of things. I’ve grown so much in my 20s; my 30s, I know, will bring new experiences and more lessons, and I want to handle them with grace and wisdom.
In my early 20s, I was trying to figure out who I was as a person, and what I cared about. I floundered a little bit, but eventually, by the time I was 25-26, I began to get a better grasp on myself. Blogging has helped with that. It’s taught me how to plan and organize better. I don’t just wing it anymore. Every single post has carefully been thought out and planned as part of a puzzle piece of the larger picture I want my blog to portray. Setting personal goals for myself has played a big part in setting the tone for each year. I do things with intention, rather than letting things happen.
This year, I have a few goals in mind.
Of course, I want to get in shape and have live a healthier lifestyle. That’s every year.
But this year in particular, I want to make time to develop healthier hobbies that aren’t merely time wasters. For example, on any given night, I will spend an hour or so playing video games on the good ol’ PS4, yet I feel like I don’t have time to exercise or clean. It’s time to stop making excuses for myself, recognize my habits, and change them.
Maybe that should be my mantra for the year: No excuses.
As a Christian, growing deeper in my relationship with God is always a big goal each year. But months will pass and I’ll realize I haven’t cracked open my Bible for quiet time. So this year, I’ve started a War Binder using a Filofax organizer I never got around to using. I’ve really gotten into scripture writing, and writing down prayers, so I am mostly going to use the War Binder for that. So far, it’s worked. I write down scripture and pray before bed. We’ll see if I can continue throughout the year.
One final goal I have for 2019 is stop comparing myself to others. It’s a bad habit that I’m sure we all have trouble with. I’ve already stopped following people on Instagram that I find I compare myself to, and I’ve posted less and less on social media. I’m realizing that not every moment needs to be shared or viewed by people online. Instagram is great to use as a sort of digital scrapbook, but I think the majority of us use it as a form of validation. How many likes can we get? At the end of the day, it doesn’t really matter how many followers you had throughout your life. How many of those followers are your real-life friends? These are the questions I’ve been asking myself as I consider just how much social media has affected me.
So I’ll probably become a hermit of sorts, but I will continue writing this blog. It’s really quite therapeutic for me. And eventually, I want to start freelancing.
What are some of your goals for the year? How are they coming so far?